So I've been demoted as pure realms freebuild helper, which I was actually saddened about at first. My sadness then manifested into rage, now I can actually deal with it and I'm happy that I got demoted. Being a staff member started becoming repetitive constantly having to listen to rules and warn/mute/kick players for breaking the rules. The responsibilities have been stripped from me so I have less to worry about. The demotion also made me enjoy Monster Hunter more, thank you preston.