no, i dont wanna do that, im too damn loyal to the people i care about, im just hurt, they went in my life, pretended to care, made me care, and then discarded me. i want to be pissed, i know by all rights i should be, but instead im just annoyed, tired, confused, and hurt. and this shit stacks onto itself like, it's just one god damn thing after another and it never gets old, like it gets old but it always has the same damn impact on me. fucking obnoxious.