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From my eyes, no experiences end well that start up quickly. You need to take your time before you get into a relationship, or it becomes more than that. It takes about four years to fully know and understand somebody, so trying to be in a relationship without knowing much is destined to fail. You are not worthless. I hate to use the whole god/purpose speech, but here it is. You aren't a nobody. You are on the planet for a reason, to do something. You help the world in some, maybe small way, but without it the world would be different. Alcohol is a bad idea to use to numb the pain. Therapy, and dealing with your problems is a much better solution, but I know I can't stop you from doing it. It's bad for you, bad for your body, etc. I know it helps you feel less lonely/depressed/suicidal, but please try and find some other way. Love is kind of overrated tbh. In movies, they act like it's this big deal, that you need love and someone to make out with. Some people handle better on their own, with those one-time or several time hook-ups, nothing more. I don't want that, I kind of want the opposite, but you need to do what's best for you. Do you feel safer going out solo, or do you want someone who cares about you infinitely? I pick the latter, for someone in your situation, it may be the former, idk.

Therapy is null and void because they can report you to the authorities if you are a danger to yourself or others and the shit i have to vent about primarily are stuff i've been through where i was doing illegal shit, and im always going to be labeled a "danger to myself" and im definitely a danger to anyone else who crosses me in my current state of affairs. no, Doctor-patient confidentiality has been ruined and so talking to a therapist is not only a waste of time, because i've tried and they struggle to comprehend my struggles, but also a sure-fire way to get the police to investigate your ass. anyone who thinks therapy is a sure-fire way to heal a damaged mind and emotional instability is a fucking retard and anyone who trusts them to be able to help is even dumber. they are just money thief's and nothing more. i dont want relationships anymore, i've lost everyone i ever knew because i dared to give them advice on where they might be messing up in life, and i lost every relationship i've ever been in because i was worthless to them, im not worthless in and of myself, but i am worthless to other's, and they are subsequently worthless to me.

i gave up my plan to get killed, everything i did for months i did out of love of her, and at the end of the day, she did what everyone else i ever knew did, she hurt me. if it weren't for me getting into college and getting somewhere in life, i'd have been dead weeks ago, but that doesn't change the fact that every time i look back on any single past memory of mine, i wince and writh in physical pain. and looking forward i see a dark and gloomy life. in the current state of affairs, i am unable to find joy in anything. at this point, not even my usual trolling is funny to me anymore. i have not smiled in i dont know how fucking long, and there is nothing that can change that, because now i dont trust any thirsty bitch that comes to me and tells me she's going to be different and that she "te amo" no quiero esa mierda.