misanthropy is entirely rational and justified.
especially when 50% of the country is functionally illiterate (i didnt pull that number out of my ass, there have been studies on this)
maybe it will help if i elaborate on some things. between 4th and 7th grade i had "behavioral issues" in school (this means i didnt conform to the ciriculum and asked too many questions. in the school's mind this behavior is synonymous with outright defiance)
at round about 6th grade, during the "investigation" into my behavior, they did a variety of studies but one of those was a literacy test. at 6th grade, it was determined that i was reading and writing at a 9th grade level
this is only one piece of a puzzle, the other piece of the puzzle would only come to me later, now that im almost done with College. over 50% of the country cannot read past a 6th grade level. in the study's words, quote; `According to the U.S. Department of Education, 54% of U.S. adults 16-74 years old - about 130 million people - lack proficiency in literacy, reading below the equivalent of a sixth-grade level.`
after discovering this, all of the issues i have encountered throughout my life can be attributed to me having a statistically above average grasp of the english language.
so, in 6th grade, at 14 some odd years old, i was already reading, speaking, and writing better than most adults in the country, and i have only continued to improve those skills over time as reading is among my greatest passions, as well as writing.
So, when i speak, purely by definitional standing my message will be clear, but very rarely is it ever understood, and even when understood it is only understood at the most basic of levels.
i speak clear english, and not a single fucking person understands what the hell that i am actually saying. i say one thing, the average person hears something completely different.
trying to explain the confusion only digs a deeper hole, because on top of not understand what im saying, now the person believes that i am talking down to them - and they call me an asshole -
i've tried being quiet, from 10th grade all the way to graduation i was nearly mute, but that just made people assume i was stupid and made things even more difficult.
and now, as an adult, people complain that i have a chip on my shoulder, or that im not approachable enough, or that i take myself too seriously.
you have eyes, but you are blind. you have ears, but you are deaf.
you have a brain, but you are dumb.
this is the unobjectionable, unbiased truth.
i have eyes that see, but hands that have been chained and bound, i have ears, but they have been forcibly muffed, i have a mouth, but no one can hear my screams.
this is the truth belonging only to me, kept by me, and when im alone and all is quiet and i have completed all of the day's tasks, i can only sit and simmer in my own distaste for the culture in which i am forced to dwell. it is a cliche at this point, but believe me when i say if there ever was a time when it could apply, it applies here, i am alone, and it's not my fault. i... Hate human beings, and it's not my fault.
ignorance is bliss, unfortunately i am awake.