man i am so tired of my current gf... i just want someone to share my life with, someone i can lay down and be myself with... someone who is active... someone who is smart, and like me, and yet has some things they can learn from me.
i want the perfect relationship, so i play like a player but i cant find nothing but ignorant haters and horny gross bitches. i just want to find a place in the world i hate so damn much, but i can't, because everyone around me is not interested in me because everything i talk about doing and everything i do is so unrealistic and it seems like something out of a video game, and quite frankly, i do not blame them... and no matter how much i assure them i am not an illusion they insist i am not real.

i am so depressed right now, i currently have everything i need. power, people, fame, sex... but the one thing that can bring me happiness... is the one thing i am deprived of... which is, of course, love. i walk by and see the perfect couples, happy, and confided in themselves... and i cannot help but envy their asylum.
and the more power i get, the less happy i am. it seems now a days the only thing left to bring me joy is the suffering and stress of others. i just want a day where i am loved, where i am happy, and where i do not feel like such a monster. i don't want to torture people for joy anymore... i just want a peaceful, and simplistic life... damn it sucks to be me.