Damnit. Ha'zi held back tears from the thought of his own uselessness and looked around at the field around him. He was as helpful as the dead, although they actually served a purpose in this battle for what they believed in. Meanwhile, Ha'zi over here had done nothing but slaughter his friends with no free will to even think about stopping it and the only 'battle' he won resulted in a series of unfortunate events that led to this madness. How many of these bodies were the result of his rampage? What were their thoughts when they saw Ha'zi, one of the people, the Karoltai, they were supposed to give their lives for to protect, begin a kill-frenzy and seemingly swallow one of their leaders? It must have been devastating. Tears came down his face again, now for the fallen soldiers here.
He was a monster. All these deaths were because of him; not just from his raging time, but from before that. If he actually tried to escape with Iver, this wouldn't have happened. If he actually succeeded in his attack earlier against Sauron's army, this wouldn't have happened. If he hadn't been so foolish and blinded by what he thought was love, this wouldn't have happened. But, it happened. And all their blood, staining the rocky ground, was from him.
Ha'zi closed his eyes as the red hot tears of failure streamed down his face. He was done. He couldn't keep doing this. The more he 'helped', only more bodies would follow. He should just sit out, so no more would be harmed by his monstrous ways. And Ha'zi, to top those thoughts off, was exhausted. Physically, emotionally, mentally, spiritually- whatever you want to call it doesn't matter, because he fucking felt it. From the bloodshed, the horrors brought upon him from Iver's parts, the heart shattering from Miriel, to even the mind shattering by that one girl. He was exhausted from all this chaos.
So, with his head hung low, Ha'zi, 'hero of Middle Earth,' tried to find some form of welcoming sleep while in the pitiful form he found himself in. [user avatar="https://cravatar.eu/helmavatar/Captain_Aasim/74.png" name="Captain_Aasim"]12253360[/user]