Well then. Ha'zi didn't really know how to feel about this. Flattered? Insulted? Scared? Happy that he chose to do the right things? Angry? The boy couldn't tell, and he wasn't sure he wanted to. Up until this horrorshow in Mordor, Ha'zi wished for a simple life, a free life. No more death and mass destruction. No more worries about gods and monsters, each as worse as the other, tormenting him. No more Karoltai bullshit. No more betrayals. No more reminders of his life so far. Just, finally, peace and happiness with himself in the world or with Miriel, which he had for a time so desired.
Then it all got flipped on him, like some sick joke life pulled. One after another, his wishes got hilariously skewed. Death and destruction? Plenty, buttloads, and not even done yet. Tormentors? Heh, he was experiencing one right now! Karoltai? Welp, that's out the window. Betrayals? ....yep. Reminders of cruel and overwhelming-with-sadness past? Hahahahhahahaa! So funny.
And just when he wanted a break from it all, when he for the first time thought about his 'chosen one' role he found himself unfortunately in, this happens. How ironic. Almost like it wasn't just coincidence. Hmm. What a life!
What he did feel, though, was wanting to do anything but swear some oath to a silent god. The last time he did that, Miriel, who he swore it for, betrayed him, so that doesn't really help his decision at the moment. Would this be the same, to come back and hurt him at some later time? Works with what this figure is implying. Killing and death all on his hands, like he was Osman. That thought alone gave him more heavy doubts about this. And Ha'zi still wanted it, it being the one thing he truly wanted. That normal peaceful life. He wouldn't dare to throw away the opportunity of that, right? Devoting his life to a cause he knew next to nothing about was a huge change from the one he originally pictured. Would that one result with the same fate this shadow of a person described? Just some random Haradrim delivering goods and eventually dying a meaningless death in the fields of the enemy?
Ha'zi strived for greatness, but at the same time avoided it at all cost. Like it was a plague and not something of honor and importance. It was somthing just too overwhelming to really think about or want to do, so any thoughts he'd have about it were tossed to the side for worry that, one day, he might actually consider it. That he would change. Ha'zi already had a set path in life, why shake things up? Just keep it as it normally is.
But now, that fearsome decision was dropped before him, with dark consequences, no matter which one he chose. Each path so off putting, too terrifying to even consider. And yet, he had to decide. Whether he liked it or not.
Despite every fiber of his being, Ha'zi knew what he would do. He knew it before the man even explained it all to him, but it had seemed so conflicting that it was pushed far back into his consciousness. He knew that it would be scary and all he felt was hiding away from this responsibility, running away from his fears. But he had to do it. He had to. So that he would keep making right choices without the negatives weighing greatly on his mind, causing him to hesitate and result in something worse to happen. So that his friends, no, his family, would be able to live. So that, as he believed in at the beginning of this vile journey, all the way back in Bree, where it all started... so that people would be able to live, despite the deaths that occurred to allow them do it.
So, with great fear and his mind shouting insults and telling him to stop, to stop and deny the offer, live that normal life he coveted, Ha'zi Mor accepted, whether out of pressure, foolishness, pride, bravery, or because he was just scared; not even he truly knew. But he accepted. To keep fighting. To keep moving forward. To throw everything he desired away. To become a saviour of Arda. To be more than just a child, to be important.
Yes, that was it, actually. Not fear or guilt. But bravery and actually wanting to do it. Ha'zi wanted to be important. And now he would finally be. "I, Ha'zi Mor, son of Lod and Dace Mor, inheritor of the Warrior from Keldar, swear to Eru Illúvatar himself that I will protect this precious world no matter the cost."
"There you have it, shadow person. I'm in your cause." He said, a warm, golden feeling of pride now in him. Ha'zi smiled at the feeling, and gazed up at the towering person, awaiting his fate as the newly christened hero. And with much determination, he asked, with all resemblance of hesitation gone now, "Tell me, what's next?" [user avatar="https://cravatar.eu/helmavatar/Captain_Aasim/74.png" name="Captain_Aasim"]12253360[/user]