In the darkness of his mind, Ha'zi felt only one thing, something which he'd felt his entire journey thus far: Scared. After everything that happened and came his way, no matter how much he'd grown, he was still that wide-eyed boy who was scared of everything around him.
There were many things he'd been scared of, but not until now they truly resurfaced. He was scared of being alone in this world, despite his dreams of exploring it. Scared of the island, that hell, and all the monsters there that had implanted dark thoughts upon his mind. Scared for his friends' safety-- what would he do if he never saw them again, how could he truly cope with losing just one of them? Scared of the deep, dark hatred he'd since buried inside of him, waiting to be released. Scared that he'd ruin everything with Miriel, the only girl who ever cared for him.
But most of all, death scared him. Not necessarily his own death, but of it. The way the light faded from someone's eyes, their life gone forever. Never to see another person again, never to laugh, never to feel, never to taste, never to live again.
The feeling of true, unspeakable sadness when his mother passed away was unbearable, so he'd hid away. Brought up walls around him cope, only pushing and keeping the one person left in his life who mattered away. Only to have him die, too.
Ha'zi remembered the hopelessness of his close encounter with death on the island. The tremendous pain he felt before everything was gone- friends, Lesier, the light, the feel of everything around him- all gone. It was terrifying. Being stuck in a void, only the thoughts of his failure to keep him company.
Mother, father, Lesier, Keldar, Elodrin, Radaa, Yuri, Celeste, Osk, Dean, slaves he'd barely talked to, people he'd never truly met at Aldamos, they all were with Ha'zi, their deaths present upon his conscious. He didn't stop them from dying... how could he stop the tremendous amount that would come now? How could he, just a boy, stop all this death and destruction, stop the apocalypse, stop a god?
These thoughts tormented Ha'zi until he was tired. Tired of the harassment and the negativity. He tried to push them all away, push away his scared nature, and tried to continue his sleep.... [user avatar="https://cravatar.eu/helmavatar/Captain_Aasim/74.png" name="Captain_Aasim"]12253360[/user]