Daugo kept chuckling as he rose from the floor. His coccyx throbbed painfully, but he was drunk enough to not mind it much. "'m sarrey, 'm sarrey," he burped, "c-couldn't hulp it." He wobbled back towards the inn, somehow ending up a little way from the door he had meant to get to, and had to grip the walls when a wave of dizziness washed over him. Grunting, he slid down and sat on the ground with some difficulty.
He had stopped chuckling by then, and the joy of intoxication had passed. He sat with his back against the inn, looking at the stars and slipping into a dreary mood. He had hated the song he had just sung when he was young, since it always forebode a long night of his mother yelling at his father for being a drunk idiot that was going to be the ruin of them all. Ulso, his father, merely regarded her with a glazed look from the couch or corner he had chosen to plop down on, occasionally snorting, burping, or making an unrelated comment.
Daugo was only now beginning to see that he was not unlike his father (though he did humbly think that he was vastly smarter). As a child, he had never understood the need to get away from the person he was by whichever means were available, nor why he wished to run from his reality but was too cowardly to actually do it. And now he did. He wondered if Ulso had had a reason to feel that way, or if the Burginses were simply prone to dissatisfaction and despair. All of their vices came from that need to get away; from what, he didn't rightly know, but it was real, and deeply-rooted. He himself found refuge in alcohol, from time to time, but he also thoroughly enjoyed being with people that didn't know who he truly was. He liked lying, and he was good at it. He liked manipulating people without them noticing, and he liked women, not just because of sex, but because he felt the most alone at night. A bit more worrisome to him was the fact that, in retrospect, he didn't absolutely hate killing. He liked the thrill, and the control he acquired over the life of another being.
"What a misserble pieceuf shit you are, Daugo," he mumbled.