I might have just inadvertently written the edgiest poem in existence.
This is what I get for writing about myself and my beliefs.
Enjoy it or don't, but here it is.
Meme away.
If silence is golden, then why am I rusty?
My lips are sealed and my tongue is dusty.
I wear a coat of anonymity over a heart of incongruity.
That beats erratically, spasmodically, like a preemptive fatality
I am the ghost that drifts between dreams
My speech is self-forbidden; my chatter is kept
My tongue is in mourning of the words it has wept
I hide in my corner and stare down the world
Yelling silently, screaming quietly, as society hurls
Inconsistency after inconsistency at logic’s ranks.
I contemplate the universe. My mind draws intricate blanks.
I am the wallflower that refuses to blossom.
People regard me strangely when I tell them my thoughts.
Are they difficult to follow? Are you, like me, lost?
I struggle, sometimes, ideologically. I teeter a bit hesitantly
Over the brink of nihilism, but science tentatively
Pulls me back. And then I fall. Knowledge isn’t power.
Pursuit of truth is an animal. It rears, growls, bites, shreds, devours.
How can you trust anything when you question everything?
How can I know anything when we really know nothing?
I am the skeleton that rattles in the closet.
A ghost, a wallflower, and a skeleton walk into a bar.
They yell at me hoarsely, loudly. I refuse to hear.
They tell me that my unfounded speculation is fruitless.
That it is a waste to consider everything to everything’s fullest.
Because infinity is fit to drive one into madness, and that is not the path to genius.
Then Seneca enters my brain, a photographic memory made momentary inconvenience,
And then the cycle spins on, reeling madly, crazily, and my analysis only exacerbates
The biting chains, wrapped fast around my mind, tightening, squeezing the light out of life.
They are far colder than the chains of depression or suicidality, because they are logical. Deceitful Truth.
I am the awkward silence, stretched to infinity and tied in a Möbius strip.