'Indeed, what the fuck has become of us?' he thought, a wispy cloud of depression settling in after a long time in the making. He sat down in a narrow back alley in the lower levels and tried to look at the stars beyond the many lights of the White City. How had he gotten here? It seemed an infinite amount of time and a string of bad choices made by others around him that had landed him in his current position. He remembered his real life --all this seemed almost like a prolonged nightmare-- a near perfect one where he loved and was beloved, he lacked for nothing and the world would definitely be alright should he choose not give a shit about it. Simpler times. Better ones.
If he had been given a choice, he would have had it that none of this had happened. Grudgingly, he admitted that he cared for the likes of Ha'zi, Iver, Sigeric, Cardiloc, Thoruk, Marco, and even Dimtri, once. That Celeborn and the elves had made him a better and wiser person, he had no doubt. However, he would rather he had never met any of them and his old life had resumed, if he could've made it so.
His hand went to his face as a steady stream of tears welled up and cascaded down his cheeks. He wept in silence, alone, and dozed off in this position. He looked almost like a homeless child.